Patience....ugh, not something that I seem to have when it comes to getting healthy or at least the weight loss part of it. I eat really well and hit the gym and seem to think I should see a huge difference in me. We can all guess what happens next when I do that body inspection in front the mirror...no change! Really, how can this happen? I sweated and made my muscles hurt shouldn't I see something? Shouldn't there be more shape in my legs or my belly definitely should be flatter because I hold my core posture whenever I'm on the elliptical or tread mill.
Self sabotage my friends, just another form of it. I am amazed at how quickly I have allowed myself to jump to these conclusions. I know better, but that voice that is so afraid of coming out of the box and breaking through always manages to find her way into my brain space. I know I have the ability to jump in and commit and get the job done. I quit smoking almost five years ago, a two pack a day smoker who was seriously addicted. (would love to blame that 40 pound weight gain on that, cant)
Am I now addicted to being fat? I had to sit down and seriously think about this. No I am not addicted to being fat, I'm just really comfortable there. It's really easy to be the funny energetic fat lady. Am I totally happy there? No I am not. I am afraid to leave there on some levels and to be totally honest I'm not really sure why. I guess that is why I am on this journey.
I have done so well on not emotional eating. This is a huge success for me. The change, allow yourself to be happy even through your struggles. I am acknowledging to myself that happy is good and ok, wonderful and exciting. Your journey doesn't have to be some brutal break down of everything for your journey to be a success. There will be break downs and breakthroughs of all sizes.
I am seeing changes, not physical ones yet, but mental and emotional changes and I totally credit that with nutrition, vitamins, essential oils, exercise and movement. I thank God for giving me the strength to start this entire journey of self love so that I may give to others.
Remember to tell yourself something positive about yourself...look into the mirror and embrace what a beautiful gift that you are.