Friday, January 24, 2014
Big Scary Step
Motivation, choices, body image...yep I have managed to talk about all three, but what is all of this coming to. Me just typing about all the things that I need to change and do without taking any action. Nope I cant do that, for the first time I really need to commit to this.
My God given gift is the power of encouragement. I can and will whole heartedly cheer you on in anyway that you need. I will even sew you a cape if that's what it takes for you be fulfilled, successful, and happy. I feel pure joy when I am able to truly encourage someone. I would go to the end of the earth to make sure you know that you are capable, gifted and loved. It's a God given gift that for some reason I do not lavish on myself. I do everything possible to discourage myself...ugh, this needs to stop!
Today I took a BIG scary step and reached out to a trainer for help. It is only a 15 day challenge, but this is huge for me! I have serious commitment issues! Asking someone for help means I have to show up, it means i cant quit, it means not canceling because I didn't get enough sleep. It means I cant bail! It means I have to try... It means that I could succeed. This is really, really scary for me.
I am realizing that my go with the flow attitude is not always conducive to a plan, and many parts of life need plans. I have a tendancy to view plans as restrictive not a a roadway to use for achieving success. This is a lesson that I am learning from a online Bible study that I am participating in and the book we are using is "Made to Crave Satisfying your deepest desire with God, not food by Lysa Terkeurst. I highly recommend this book whether you decide to do this as a bible study or just read it.
I do want you to know while taking the big scary step I was driving to Five Guys to meet a friend for lunch while I was talking to the trainer! Getting ready to kiss Five Guys goodbye until I learn some new eating habits.
Tomorrow at 10 a.m. I have a meeting with Justin at FIT LLC to learn about nutrition and to set up our times together. I'm really scared about this a little excited and a little depressed. If I would have thought this all the way through I would have set this up so I could enjoy a bunch of really bad food all weekend. I like to think that this means I will succeed in this journey because the food was not the first thought this time.
Remember to tell yourself something positive about yourself today.